660. Alaya Dickinson

Alaya first experienced brief glimpses leading to a spontaneous awakening in 1997. This left her with a burning fire for truth and a determination to find a release from her suffering. She was drawn to satsang and to the feet of her beloved Neelam: a teacher of the Ramana Maharshi lineage. From that very first meeting there arose a profound recognition of unconditional love but also a strong sense of separation and resistance. However, Alaya instinctively knew that penetrating the resistance was exactly what was needed to penetrate the suffering. With Neelam’s unconditional love this separation fell away shortly after the birth of Alaya’s first child in 2001. With a new husband and baby, Alaya moved to Asheville. She found in her daily experience of being a householder and working mother, that there was much abiding awareness/living in present Reality. But the non-abiding dream state kept arising which created an even deeper desire to investigate what was still appearing as separation. She realized that what was needed was already in the life she was leading and that every moment was a gift and opportunity to return to the natural awakened Self. “My husband, my children, my job, everything is my teacher, and true love is laying down whatever pulls on you, turning back to this life with an open heart and open palms.” With the realization that ordinary everyday life was sacred and that each moment was the Beloved pointing us home, she continued to question and inquire into her ideas, perspectives, and feelings until the veil of separation finally fell away. “With tenderness and openness, conditioning can unmanifest - leaving what naturally remains, as stillness, presence and love.” As people began to ask her to teach, Grace appeared as the non-dual teacher Adyashanti and with his support and friendship she began to give satsang in 2011. “Grace is like gravity, it will continue to pull you within for the truth of who you are isn’t found in doing. It is found in the silence – in stillness.” Website: alayasatsang.org Discussion of this interview in the BatGap Community Facebook Group. Summary and Transcript of this interview Interview recorded August 27, 2022 YouTube Video Chapters: 00:00:00 - Introduction to Buddha at the Gas Pump 00:04:08 - The Awakening Experience at a Young Age 00:07:43 - Following Intuitive Knowing 00:11:14 - Unknowing and Reformulation 00:14:34 - The Unknowingness of Grass 00:18:00 - The Fishiness of Life 00:21:39 - A Diverse Community in a Double Wide Trailer Bar 00:24:59 - A Transformational Experience 00:28:39 - Deepening of Presence and Surrendering to the Vaster State 00:32:16 - The Primal Resistance to Opening Up 00:36:06 - The Trauma of Duality 00:39:37 - The Stages of Spiritual Development and Societal Growth 00:43:01 - Being of Service by Becoming Nobody 00:47:11 - Different Roles and Different Paths 00:51:06 - Unconditional Love and the Collapse of Searching 00:55:26 - Carried by Grace 00:58:56 - Deepening into Oneness with Neelam 01:03:04 - The Decision to Move On 01:07:08 - The Fear of Suffering and Awakening 01:10:55 - Dissolving the Ego and Aligning with the Deeper Gift 01:14:55 - Meeting Neelam and the Veil on My Face 01:18:41 - The Role of a Teacher in Spiritual Awakening 01:22:16 - The Gift of Healing and Transmission 01:25:47 - Degrees of Receptivity and Awakening 01:29:06 - Deeper embodiment of awakening 01:32:47 - The Beauty of Constant Change 01:35:59 - The Nature of the Path and the Danger of Feeling Accomplished 01:39:31 - The Pitfall of Idolizing Teachers 01:42:55 - Being of Service to Others 01:46:49 - Expansion of Zoom Retreats and In-Person Meetings 01:50:22 - Experiencing Psychological Trauma of Separation