769: I'm Better than This! (The Bittersweet Flavor of Self Disgust)

human beings are sensation-receiving machines / people have little access to the possible world existing beyond their sensations - or do they? / after the indulgence  - how do you feel? / there’s bitter sweetness in self-disgust  / the mind is living in the glue trap of desire / material pleasure is chewing the chewed - spiritual pleasure has newer and newer flavors /  Yamunacarya’s devotion is reignited / I’m better than this! / trade in small L love for big L Love / I don’t want to live in a hope to enjoy life- I want to enjoy life / the cotton candy of material enjoyment leads to nausea / the satisfaction of serving SB 4.22.22-23